Synchronicities awareness – journey back in time

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My journey through synchronicities today led me to a more clarified state of mind and emotions, which then subsequently led towards knowledge of what is needed to be in place and a clearer sense of direction.

‘I get it’, I heard myself say today several times, as I began my train journey into London. This morning I noticed a sense of excitement within, which is not usually present at the prospect of going into a big, noisy, busy place like a city. There was anticipation and a clear sense of ‘I am going to find out something today’. This was to be a useful exercise and an insightful experience, which, like any experience if done with awareness can help us more forward in our growth.

The weather was overcast with a threat of rain, but I was glad of that and grateful to the universe for providing that extra step where I would be comfortable in attending to today’s business in the city. If it was baking hot, it would have been easy for me to say ‘no’ to an experience however strong the pull might have been. I don’t thrive in heat, my spirit dims and my thinking is foggy. I needed light rain and grey clouds to keep my senses fresh and yes, the universe knew that well. I smiled, as I watched trees slide past the window of a moving train.

When I arrived the feeling of content and curiosity remained intact and as I was walking along old London’s street past old buildings I noticed how many plaques were on the walls and all of them pointed towards a certain artist or a doctor having lived there before – all from the 18th century. Again, my excitement grew and I felt a sense of being transported into the period. I saw a carriage pulling outside one of the front doors and a gentleman helped a lady step on to the pavement. Her dress was modest, but beautiful and everything was in place, as she gracefully walked up the stairs towards the door followed by a gentleman. I was very aware of different smells today – clean, sterile in one place and ‘old’, ‘not of this world’ in another. Fresh white wash paint was another. It was such a sensory experience, as if walls of each building were speaking to me. I realised that buildings just like land connects to my sensory abilities and I am able to read their signatures. I am sure there is a word for this, a name that escapes me at the moment. I smiled, as I am becoming familiar with my connection to the 18th century. In the last year or two there had been signs it was the time I was here before. I am enjoying exploration into that past-life aspect of myself and being shown more and more in terms of what that means and how the past can influence the future in a way beneficial to me.

The place I visited had a lovely ‘crisp, clean and sterile’ feel of a hospital, something I love to experience. The smell of surgical spirit and clean bed sheets – I can clearly see it around the place. For sometime I went into a state of being with that experience, transported into a state I knew well and a place I had visited before and called home.

There was more to come and when it came to the business of why I was actually there I was led into a room with no windows and bang, there it was again – my core trauma of being ‘imprisoned’. I instantly knew this was not meant to be and began to question – why? What was it about the person showing it to me and the actual room that tells me I must walk away. A feeling of sadness was present, but also felt right. When something feels right whether it is sad or joyous we go with the feeling of ‘right’, nothing else matters. We must let go off an attachment to an outcome we might have had before undertaking something. This was one of those moment where I had to let go off my original plan and be prepared to look into this from a perspective of what this is telling me right now. Next room was no better. It was cluttered, dirty and smelt unpleasant. It was in contrast with the room I saw before, which was beautifully decorated and pleasant, but without a window. The room I stood in had a window, but it was covered by a dirty cheap blind. Again, I felt a definite ‘no’ message. Something was not complete yet. I was not ready. There was still more completion and tidying up to do before I could put the plan in action. Very clear message.

As I left the building I felt very tired and had a headache. My spirits were slightly dimmed, but it felt like I did a lot of work having gone on this journey and insights started flowing out of me while I waited for the train back. Crystal clear messages with exact wording of what needs to be done and what I need to ignore. I felt grateful yet again for having listened to the inner voice to go on this trip. I got so much out of it.

I invite everyone to follow that inner voice and tune into yourself daily in hope to align with universal intentions. I find especially in times of uncertainty it is very useful to look around you, to ask for assistance. It comes in mysterious ways and when you immerse yourself into that exploration of possibilities you will be surprised what comes out of it. I have done this several times and the city now called me several times just like the forest would call me in the same way. One got to go when you are called, as there are gems of knowledge lies within the universal and you are very much part of it, so participate with joy and curiosity.

Much love

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I love today

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My heart beats with warmth and love today. There is a dizzy feeling of comforting intoxication. I like many things today. I appreciate many things today within and without and it feels contained and safe. Today I am in love with the process of writing and reading about nature and people, who are in deeply sacred relationship with it. I snuggled into the feeling of belonging, understanding and sharing. I am in a place of acceptance, kindness and compassion. I smile and laugh with my parents today, I talk softly to my partner and shower my son with love and affection. I love today. I love my house, a place of safety, comfort, joy and beauty, I smile as I walk from one room to another. I am aware of everything within me. I hear an internal song, a whistle of a jolly soft tune my heart is humming carefree and settled. I go to my garden plot where my vegetables are in wonderful growth, they are blooming into a wonderful green picture of deliciousness. I stop to admire it all, I smell tomato plants and run my fingers through beetroot tops. Cucumbers are looking beautiful. I love cucumber leaves and yellow flowers. I free potato plants from a sea of weeds, which feel soft and wet under my feet and in my hands. I get into the rhythm and hear that humming jolly song again within my heart. I pause, breathe in, strengthen my back and stretch my arms high to the sky with gratitude and oh, such peace within me. I love today!

Restoring inner peace 

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When you are thrown off course by outside circumstances and you didn’t see it coming it is a sign you left your centre unattended. When things happen you didn’t expect to happen you feel out of control desperately trying to gain control and attaching to outcomes in your thinking that you do want.

Trying to apply control when emotionally overwhelmed is some might say a natural reaction. We become obsessive in our actions, words and behaviour just to avoid feeling lost, empty and uncertain. It works, but a lasting effect is living within a prison of your own desperation to control everything and anything to avoid feelings within yourself, to avoid facing yourself.

When the world around us suddenly feels under threat the best and most important thing we must do is not to leave ourselves but check with ourselves applying soothing understanding and accepting to all feelings and surrendering to what we can’t control. We release out resistance to  unfavourable circumstances and allow the natural flow to occur however negative.

Bring it back to your heart centre by placing a hand over your heart area. Breathe into the space where you feel love and peace. Slow down, stay still, allow for whatever is present to be acknowledged in that moment.

There’s universal vibration at all times that holds faith and hope that all is just as it should be and all will be just the way it is meant to be. All we can do when we are thrown into a state of fear, desperation and uncertainty is stay with ourselves and acknowledge what we do have, what we can control and what we love and appreciate. Do not let go off your joy and peace however tempting it might be to spiral in the opposite direction.

Love and light

 

June – my yearly spiritual journey begins

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June – the month of spiritual opening

I have been consciously observing my relationship with each season and Sabbatt over the last two years, as part of me growing deeper into my spirituality. Following each month with awareness of energies, shifts, difficulties, preferences  I have come to many extremely useful insights and revelations, which subsequently had an impact on my life in all areas. One of the main insights was that there are certain patterns I go through as the Wheel turns through the year.

Some of you might already know, e.g. the month of May and the festival of Beltain is a difficult time for me due to some trauma that had occurred in my past. May is closely linked to the realm of ‘relationships’ for me. This year was no different; however, as I noticed recurring themes coming in each year I also set my intention to make a conscious shift in NOT repeating certain things going forward. I received upgrades and demands of necessary clearing out of my consciousness and invitation to grow into a new way of being in relation to repeated themes. Very much like a recurring dream until a dreamer gets the message, so to speak, patterns will continue to occur with messages becoming louder and louder. Will see what happens next year in relation to that, as I make what had been unconscious conscious and heal through my material. Very excited, needless to say, to be doing this work and being on this path. It is endlessly inspiring to me to be living the life in alignment with natural cycles and nature’s wisdom.

We are now in June, post-Summer Solstice, and what I have come to realise there is another pattern, which occurs for me during this month, specifically around and post Summer Solstice. This Sabbatt is another period of transition when the Kings are changed and we are beginning our descend towards shorter days and longer nights. This year, by the way, insights have been coming in so profoundly quick, like hitting me over the head with information and ways to move forward. Terribly exciting. This one was no different. The way I came to realise something was going on was the way I was asked to ‘go to sleep’, as if to say ‘there are messages in your dreams you need to know NOW’. A couple of times and, this happened during the day, I was ‘knocked down’ literally and the only way was to my bed to sleep immediately. I found it impossible to stay awake or do anything and, of course, those dreams are proving to be extremely potent with information. During the night dreaming has also become noticably intense. A lot of death occurs for me in dreams at this time, but this is another post all together. Looking back I began to reflect and make links with the month of June and how often at this time a dream journey for the year, the biggest one, would usually begin for me. This is a series of dreams, which hold a story for my growth and development, a story I must write down and follow and go through until it is complete. This year looks no different. I looked at when my spiritual awakening happened, during the month of June around the 20th June, three years ago, and I looked at what followed, which became clear to me June is the beginning of a yearly spiritual journey for me, which would manifest in dream work, travelling to my soul land (The Highlands, Scotland), confronting some difficulties towards the end of summer and coming out the other end a new person at the beginning of Autumn. So, here I am again feeling a particular way about this forthcoming journey I am about to go on. I am excited, nervous and looking forward to it. It usually begins at this time and continues till the end of summer. Watch the space. I will be posting updates on what comes in and happens in hope someone can relate to this process and get inspired by my journey through the seasons and months of the year.

 

Naming Trees

Sharing some wonderful pictures taken by tree lovers in the UK 

  
Mystique encounters 

  
Medusa

  
Young brothers 

  
Midsummer Fairytale 

  
Emerald depths

  
The Oak and the Birch – the sacred marriage 

  
Standing tall 

Summer Solstice 2016 

 
In the summer I am not ‘in my element’ in a sense that my creativity stops, thinking slows down and I experience and feel the world around me through my senses and in stillness. I have less energy and vigour. This explains slowing down of writing and fewer piano playing sessions at this point.

While Nature explodes in her colours, scents and sounds my expression struggles to shine.  As I prepare for a workshop on ‘seasons and psyche’ I once again become aware of my quietness of expression and creativity during summer months as opposed to late autumn and winter months, which, for me, sparkle with creative Fire and immense productivity.

Hot weather makes me sleepy, I enjoy quiet reading time in the shade and spending time with my plants once evenings set in. The majesty of green in nature is impossible not to love and enjoy and I experience it in my heart with quiet acknowledgement rather than explosion of creative expression.

On the eve of Summer Solstice I reflect once again on the year so far and just how many bumps in the road I have come up against yet, and I say it with pride, every challenge has been overcome and things have transformed as a result of rolling with it and allowing transformation and learning to take place.

With open heart and ever-present mind I welcome the turning of the Wheel and this period of transition and the beginning of decline towards darkness in nature. I look forward to the ripeness and richness of the gifts from the Earth yet to come, freshness of evening air still to be enjoyed and my forthcoming trip to my spiritual home.

Wishing you all blessed Summer Solstice and many wonderful lessons and transformational experiences during the summer months.
Much love and many blessings!