Transpersonal Integrative psychotherapist and Intuitive witch

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What are the similarities between two parts within me, which are at play simultaneously. These two occupations, let’s call it that, have a lot more in common than one might think. I have experienced again and again the alignment between the two and it makes complete sense and feels whole.

At the centre of my work is intuition. It is my guiding, navigational, feeling system that allows me to relate and understand the other on a deeper level. Energies go through me and reflect back to whoever is sitting with me whatever I might be working with and it is that ‘going through me’ technique allows me to know what the other might need and benefit from.

Intuition is also used in ‘magical’ workings and 90% of my magic/spiritual work is intuitive, always has been from the very beginning as I stepped on the nature-based spiritual path. It is an exciting journey and I never once doubted what I do or did was somewhat ‘incorrect’, if I can call it that. There is not often right or wrong there is only better or poorer adjustments of what’s available. Some work can be intense and alignment is stronger and in other cases it is less so and effects are subtler. Intuition is something to be trusted and be open to and I am completely and utterly in its power knowing it will lead me where I need to go. It offers a well of possibilities of your own self-knowledge. All the treasure is already within us and one way to access that treasure is through intuition and listening to your inner voice of wisdom.

As an Integrative transpersonal psychotherapist I use myself and my intuition to decide and most of the time know what’s needed, when, how and for who. I pick techniques, approaches and a line to follow from my collection of tools, knowledge and experience through listening to the other’s story and working cognitively, emotionally, spiritually, using my body and being aware of the energy. I use my whole self to inform me of a direction and certain needs of a client. It is deeply relational, on a soul level, one might say, when myself and the other operate as one, as two humans on a journey of discovery. I work as a guide, support system, safe space and a container for the other while they go through a process of transformation. There is no judgement and we embrace an open heart, unconditional love and acceptance.

Magic is involved in psychotherapeutic work. There are often moments of connection and insight in a therapy room, which feel truly magical. Many of my colleagues would agree. It is the same in my work with the elements and nature, talking to trees, creating rituals and spells, working with deities. Magic in both contexts mean moments of divine connection when forces align and energies peak/flow in a certain way  that manifestation/transformation is possible. Results occur as a consequence of a way of working that is deeply spiritual and earthly at the same time. It is rooted in love and relating through the heart.

I am truly appreciative of how parts of myself align into one purpose whether I am being a therapist or a nature adventurer, ritual creator or a spiritual guide. It feels incredibly rich and immensely fulfilling. I can find magic all around me and I look forward to continuing my work with intuition as my guiding force and constant companion.

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Sacred peace

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The feeling of inner peace for me has always been the most unreachable and desirable state I could ever imagine. I simply always knew that it was my deepest desire to be able to taste, feel and introject the signature of what is the ultimate Inner Peace. It always felt like my life has been one big turmoil and unrest within the soul and nothing ever seemed to shift that innate sadness I always felt. Whenever I had come up against challenges, losses, depression, mania, addiction or total abandonment and bitter loneliness I fought my demons from outside in making myself unworthy, making myself disappear in the sea of desperation and hopelessness. I always craved and wished for one day to feel that peace within. I always said that there could not be anything better than a peace of mind, a peace of heart and a peace of my total being. I still stand by that.

Well, it has been a journey and through my life experience I have tasted that what I had desired for so long. I am now able to access that primary positive signature feeling more and more often. How it makes me feel? Humble, soft, gentle, pure, light, whole, all giving and receiving, loved. It is a feeling of a feather gently spiralling to the ground and landing on the earth so softly and gracefully it makes the world stop and witness it with the heart full of love and inspiration.

Lately I have been reading Buddhism teachings and listening to some great teachers, who radiate that feeling I now know well. It exists in other people and we all have potential to reach that place where we are one, we are whole and we are loved unconditionally. When I attempt to describe it to my clients I tend to go into that space where it is alive and it radiates towards whoever is listening and the effect of it is transformational. I do wish to be able to continue transmitting that feeling whenever it is needed for my loved ones and in my work. Just writing about it all I can see in front of me is gentle waves of the ocean licking the shore and air is so still and tranquil it makes me want to cry. It is somewhat elegant, pristine, untouched and utterly beautiful. I can also smell sandalwood and lavender, feel the freshness of air, smell the saltiness of water and earthiness of the ground with my solar plexus feeling warm. I notice how all four elements are present within that feeling, which fills me with joy.

This image is becoming one of my favourite associations with the feeling I describe. Many years ago I bought this statue, but I never knew why I did and what the use of it was for me, I just picked it up and brought it home from abroad. I bought it in a junk shop in Spain, I think. It is very simple yet I have always felt it and over the years it somehow made it to the centre of my altar and stayed there without me moving it anywhere else or even touching it. It ended up to be the centre piece on my Pagan eclectic witchy altar. Only now it is slowly beginning to make sense, as I recognise the signature of the feeling I have been seeking and my attraction to the ‘peace and stillness’ of the figure resonates with my heart. I love it. I will continue my exploration of this beautifully flowing feeling I have come to discover within and seek to amplify it for the purpose of my soul’s growth and bigger development within the structure I live. I remain ever curious and open to all messages that come my way.

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Synchronicities awareness – journey back in time

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My journey through synchronicities today led me to a more clarified state of mind and emotions, which then subsequently led towards knowledge of what is needed to be in place and a clearer sense of direction.

‘I get it’, I heard myself say today several times, as I began my train journey into London. This morning I noticed a sense of excitement within, which is not usually present at the prospect of going into a big, noisy, busy place like a city. There was anticipation and a clear sense of ‘I am going to find out something today’. This was to be a useful exercise and an insightful experience, which, like any experience if done with awareness can help us more forward in our growth.

The weather was overcast with a threat of rain, but I was glad of that and grateful to the universe for providing that extra step where I would be comfortable in attending to today’s business in the city. If it was baking hot, it would have been easy for me to say ‘no’ to an experience however strong the pull might have been. I don’t thrive in heat, my spirit dims and my thinking is foggy. I needed light rain and grey clouds to keep my senses fresh and yes, the universe knew that well. I smiled, as I watched trees slide past the window of a moving train.

When I arrived the feeling of content and curiosity remained intact and as I was walking along old London’s street past old buildings I noticed how many plaques were on the walls and all of them pointed towards a certain artist or a doctor having lived there before – all from the 18th century. Again, my excitement grew and I felt a sense of being transported into the period. I saw a carriage pulling outside one of the front doors and a gentleman helped a lady step on to the pavement. Her dress was modest, but beautiful and everything was in place, as she gracefully walked up the stairs towards the door followed by a gentleman. I was very aware of different smells today – clean, sterile in one place and ‘old’, ‘not of this world’ in another. Fresh white wash paint was another. It was such a sensory experience, as if walls of each building were speaking to me. I realised that buildings just like land connects to my sensory abilities and I am able to read their signatures. I am sure there is a word for this, a name that escapes me at the moment. I smiled, as I am becoming familiar with my connection to the 18th century. In the last year or two there had been signs it was the time I was here before. I am enjoying exploration into that past-life aspect of myself and being shown more and more in terms of what that means and how the past can influence the future in a way beneficial to me.

The place I visited had a lovely ‘crisp, clean and sterile’ feel of a hospital, something I love to experience. The smell of surgical spirit and clean bed sheets – I can clearly see it around the place. For sometime I went into a state of being with that experience, transported into a state I knew well and a place I had visited before and called home.

There was more to come and when it came to the business of why I was actually there I was led into a room with no windows and bang, there it was again – my core trauma of being ‘imprisoned’. I instantly knew this was not meant to be and began to question – why? What was it about the person showing it to me and the actual room that tells me I must walk away. A feeling of sadness was present, but also felt right. When something feels right whether it is sad or joyous we go with the feeling of ‘right’, nothing else matters. We must let go off an attachment to an outcome we might have had before undertaking something. This was one of those moment where I had to let go off my original plan and be prepared to look into this from a perspective of what this is telling me right now. Next room was no better. It was cluttered, dirty and smelt unpleasant. It was in contrast with the room I saw before, which was beautifully decorated and pleasant, but without a window. The room I stood in had a window, but it was covered by a dirty cheap blind. Again, I felt a definite ‘no’ message. Something was not complete yet. I was not ready. There was still more completion and tidying up to do before I could put the plan in action. Very clear message.

As I left the building I felt very tired and had a headache. My spirits were slightly dimmed, but it felt like I did a lot of work having gone on this journey and insights started flowing out of me while I waited for the train back. Crystal clear messages with exact wording of what needs to be done and what I need to ignore. I felt grateful yet again for having listened to the inner voice to go on this trip. I got so much out of it.

I invite everyone to follow that inner voice and tune into yourself daily in hope to align with universal intentions. I find especially in times of uncertainty it is very useful to look around you, to ask for assistance. It comes in mysterious ways and when you immerse yourself into that exploration of possibilities you will be surprised what comes out of it. I have done this several times and the city now called me several times just like the forest would call me in the same way. One got to go when you are called, as there are gems of knowledge lies within the universal and you are very much part of it, so participate with joy and curiosity.

Much love

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Creative spells in nature – New Moon Cleavers 

  
Cleavers is a wonderful herb/weed, which contains many properties beneficial to the body. I have also been enjoying its ‘sticky’ texture when working in the garden and on my allotment. When weeding everything else sticks to it, I found, and makes for an easy carrying and disposal. Fantastic.

I love it’s appearance and it’s texture, a very playful herb in its signature. 

When walking in the woods yesterday on the eve of a New Moon doing some mindful healing and tree talk I was drawn to cleavers once again in the hedgerow. I decided to do a quick spell, small creative piece to coincide with my favourite moon cycle. 

New Moon is all about starting over. It offers an empty opening for things to be planted. Setting goals and intentions for things you wish to be present in your life. Taking cleavers off the hedges and gathering it in my hands I found myself making a ‘wish doll’. I made a small body with a flower crown on top and as I was weaving cleavers round and round the figure I was naming things I would like to work on during the new cycle, wishing for things I would like to be more of in my life and inviting improvements to come in areas of my choice. It made me smile once I finished this quick spell and a feeling of loving comfort came over me. It felt just right to have done this. I left the doll amongst ivy wrapped around a hawthorn trunk asking for protection and growth.

Cleavers is a wonderful herb and here you can look up some of its healing properties. It is easily recognisable, widely available during this time of year and simple to work with. 

https://altnature.com/gallery/cleavers.htm

The Universal Flow

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Do you ever feel like the universe is against you? Well, it is not that she is against you it is that you are not in alignment with her offerings. She is neither good nor bad, she is always available whether you are going through a good period or experience challenges. She does not judge or abandon. It is being able to tap into all the resources that are available that will get you through or support you in the best way that is possible.

But, I don’t believe in this stuff… you say… I get it, this concept, like many others are difficult to comprehend at first and you know why? Most of the time what we do is we go straight into our heads and minds and try to apply reason, logic, thinking and that is the problem. The universe can’t be ‘thought through’ it must be ‘felt through’.  The universe can’t be understood through thinking, one must engage feeling. Those, who follow the calling of the universe, or align with her flow, have at some point in their lives felt that message. Through feeling something no evidence is needed, because one can’t deny how one feels, it is just there, it happens, you feel it, you know it. One can’t deny that knowing that something is being felt at a given moment. If you are someone, who had not yet experienced that feeling of knowing, the first step would be start developing your intuition and following your own inner voice. Become aware of everything you say, do, the way you behave and observe your surroundings and every time pay attention to how you feel. Your intuition is your best navigational system.

At the moment, I am not aligning with the universe. I am not. My head is full of thoughts, worries and anxieties and that makes me disconnect from my body, my feelings. What I find myself in is a state of stress. This is not good yet once you get into that cycle of doing and doing and not feeling enough, it becomes easy to fall into a space of not trusting the universe. We might even feel abandoned and forgotten and then questions like ‘why me’ start coming in. STOP!

What is needed is self-care, we need to stop, cancel all that we planned, stay still and put and use every minute we are on our own to nourish ourselves emotionally and physically. Our spirit, as well as our body need attention and soothing vibes to bring it all back into balance.

Techniques for self-care:

  • Rest
  • Sitting in silence
  • Meditation
  • Soothing music
  • Wholesome nourishing whole foods
  • Sleep
  • Water
  • Walking in nature
  • Just staying still
  • Use your favourite essential oils and crystals (very soothing)
  • Draw
  • Walk barefoot

This is not an exhaustive list by any means, so feel free to add your own favourite ways of de-stressing and aligning with that flow once again. Practice this regularly.

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