It is all about perception…

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We are all familiar with an expression ‘jumping through hoops’. What it often implies is a kind of struggle, difficulty and doing something one is not keen on necessarily. Someone mentioned it in conversation to me recently describing a situation where it looks like there was no enjoyment in actions and tasks, i.e. there was a feeling in that person that the other was having to ‘jump through hoops’. It can be so, however, it got me thinking in terms of how many times certain expressions we are used to imply generalisation for us all. I am not a fan of generalisation due to awareness of just how individually different and unique we all are. Many find generalisations helpful. It makes them feel like they fit in, they feel understood and safe somehow. It offers a quick explanation to what they are going through and their agreeing to the statement in that moment is almost automatic.

I began to think deeper about the concept of ‘jumping through hoops’ and what its vibration offers to us. Does it always have to be difficult and tinted with negativity or something unpleasant? Sure, the hoop can be visualized as an obstacle, covered in raging fire and something very hard to overcome, which requires us pushing ourselves to limits to get to the other side. Is there another vibration in that ‘jumping through fire’? It depends how one looks at it, how one perceives the situation they are in.

As I walked in the woods this morning what came into my awareness was an arch, or a beautiful ring through which one can walk, but it wasn’t covered in angry fire, but blooming roses.

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My consciousness immediately took me back to the conversation I refer to above earlier this week and within my body I felt an opening around my heart. I smiled. The vision of the rose-covered arch became magnified and I could smell the scent of the blooms and feel their tender foliage. It was full of life and hope. For flowers to bloom in its most beautiful manifestation they need nurturing and careful attention, they need love and watchful care. It is not an easy task to keep something alive and thriving. Flowers on the arch are manifestation of spirit in nature. They are filled with sparkling aliveness and sweet scent, which affects our senses. Have you ever tried to merge with a flower? Shapeshift? It is one of the most satisfying and delicious experiences and one of the easiest, as flowers are inviting to the soul in their beauty.

I then imagines what if we switch the idea of ‘jumping through hoops’, which feels heavy and a struggle to walking through rose-covered arches instead. By switching our perception of what we are doing, we align with a different vibration all together. It is still not easy, as to truly walk through the arch of blooming roses we must ensure those roses are in bloom and flourishing, otherwise it wouldn’t walk, but in that vibration we do not forget our efforts and we celebrate our achievements and from one arch to the other we carry the gift of hope and love for ourselves and goals we set out to achieve. We work hard in-between the arches and there are often many to walk through, but it becomes a pleasure rather than a chore, something we need to do to get to the end. It becomes a journey, which then makes the destination ever so more fulfilling and joyful.

This year for me consists of an end goal, which is in sight, however, to reach the destination there are many obstacles to overcome. There is a step-by-step plan, which I have in mind and working through, but instead of making it feel like I am jumping through hoops I choose to walk through rose gardens full of arches alive with love and hope. I choose to enjoy every single step however difficult. I choose to remain at one arch at a time and not rush the journey of achieving sweet results awaiting at the end.

It is all about perception of a task or an event and it always helps to look deeper within allowing for signs and answers to come through. It is all about what we choose to align with and listen to whether it is generalised or highly individual. Nature facilitates that process for me always and there is nothing that I trust more than Nature, which activates my inner voice the most and connects it to the beating heart of what matters in that moment, that day, that week.

Much love

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2017 challenges so far…

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This year’s signature is getting involved with life, stepping into that ever-moving flow of things, very busy, that treadmill we all talk about and many want to avoid. This is what is kind of expected of us just to test it out one more time if someone is unsure about the way forward. It feels old, but new at the same time. It is approached from a perspective of ‘give it go, why not, see what else is there to learn’. It is an opportunity to expand, as always, and this year’s offering for expansion is through being busy and very much in life.

It feels I am being pulled towards it. It feels like by the end of the year my desire, purpose and destiny will clarify once and for all. On many levels it feels like the last chance before I step into a concrete knowing, although nothing is ever concrete and we don’t want it to be. There is paradox present, for sure, and it is up to us to work out what that means for us. It is a year to find out exactly what will drive me forward and in what way. In order to get to that understanding I am to get on that fast-moving train into my day-to-day life with challenges and stress very much part of it, it seems. . It feels necessary and part of the learning and part of my evolution.

It also feels like the second attempt of a similar scenario I tried eight years ago when coming out of ‘stay at home mum’ state for the first time and going back to work. It is all about finding things out again in a new way, in a different way and see if this time it brings desires and destinies in line.

I feel resistance to this way already even though I thought that’s what I wanted and this is familiar. It is a challenge to see if I am to navigate it this time with more wisdom and patience. I get it. It is a test.

Signature is getting on with it with patience, loving heart towards myself and others and quiet determination. To see challenges and obstacles as lessons. It is to test my strength and resourcefulness. The thing is my self-belief has never been stronger than this year and I feel there’s nothing I can’t do. Interesting. I am very much in my Warrior self. There is blood, darkness and gold at the same time. There is a feeling of treasure awaiting me yet the road is super difficult to see and even more difficult to walk. A lot of drive, focus, motivation is needed and my warrior is up for that challenge. The feeling for this year is generally good, opportunistic, ‘show what you’ve got’ type of energy.

I do find myself wishing this year away and that’s been present since January and that is part of the process reflecting back to me my own impatience, distortions in fire when frustrated and sometimes difficulties dealing with stress. It is also part of that resistance, push and pull within me. The reason they are reflected is with an aim of awareness and subsequent adjustment of my ways. I need to be present with what is in the moment. Calm, solid steps without the mind rushing into things.

Watch the space…

 

Aggression as a shadow side of peace

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Underneath peace there is aggression. I wonder if it’s possible? I felt it growing around me, towards me and penetrating my energy field. By day two it was everywhere and I either felt numb, frozen on the spot as if suspended in the air observing all  that goes on down below or I was filled with hatred. What appears peaceful at first might have an aggressor hidden within. This was an interesting experience and a warning that this, indeed, is possible.

Here, in particular, I would like to discuss this in relation to a spiritual by-pass and what happens when one seeks to cover one with another without moving even the top of the soil, so to speak. There is no intention to dig deep, there is only intention to cover up and then become ‘suspended’ above it all so not to touch the ‘shit’.

I sat in the woods for a few hours this weekend while attending a festival surrounded by a lot of people and children and I simply observed. I tell you that the support of a tree against my head and my back was absolutely necessary. The trees were pines and I adore their reassuring and solid vibration, as well as pleasant smell of ‘home’ and freshness. I sat on the ground and I people watched. Initially I felt peace around me, light vibration that hardly had any movement. It was pleasant, yes, intoxicating yet there was something else behind it I kept on thinking. I realised there was a pull towards ‘peace’ energy from my side and I allowed for that to come in, but I also allowed something else to birth with that initial vibration. The shadow side of peace is aggression. On day two it became clear and I felt deeply rooted aggression within so many. It is very well hidden in some and not so well in others. There are also beings I came across that felt solidly genuine in their intention and comfortable in their skins. This was affecting me greatly as I also began to feel my own shadow, my own inner aggression. It was mirroring it back to me, it was a two-way process. More specifically, however, what I felt from the place and others is aggression, which had been covered with spirituality in mind. I began to see children displaying similar energy, which felt very odd, but they appeared like angry animals with extremely strong aggression vibration. It all felt unbalanced somewhat. I began to think of what this might mean. We all are familiar with spiritual by-passing when something is not being looked at within and deliberately covered up by spiritual intentions and language. Perhaps, spirituality also became a copying mechanism for many when dealing with the world at large, which is full of terror and fear. It is all understandable, but I also couldn’t help feeling a clear sense of loss, sadness and already exhausted from just over a day of what I didn’t initially know what it was, I felt I didn’t want to participate or had energy to look deeper. Yes, I escaped to my home holding on to my centre for dear life. An energetic experience I never forget and will continue to learn from for days, months to come I am sure.

I would encourage everyone to be observant of your surroundings and check everything against how you feel, what a situation, a person, an exchange, etc. evokes in you and why. Some of you might get clear instant messages of what you are experiencing and what a message is, others might become aware later on. The main thing always is to check against your emotional, feeling body in all situations. It is the best way to know for sure what is going on and what to do next, in my experience.

Many blessings!