Yule Readings 

  

I am offering readings for a short period of time just before Yule, in time to hear what’s coming through and what needs to meet with the light ahead. 

Customised and personalised to your questions at the end of this difficult year. Big changes coming and shifts are about to take place. 

I will use a mixture of tools, creative techniques and most of all my intuition to bring messages to you from the source and your higher self.

Message me! 

~ Raw Pagan 

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Intuitive readings heal 

Connecting with human beings on a soul level is a profoundly intense and transformative experience for an intuitive reader and it is incredibly healing to a person receiving a reading. I have experienced this again and again with many who come to me.

I believe we all want to be seen, heard and guided in a way where our soul is at the centre of all connection. When one sees another on a level, which goes beyond what’s physical, assumed, known and showed and instead one works with what’s not seen or even known to a person it touches a place within us that’s been unseen by many throughout our lives. That place where we are of the divine nature, in our original state of unique inner essence often gets hidden through life challenges, conditioning and environment we live in and intuitive readings can unveil aspects of ourselves that we no longer connect with, but so want to deep down.

It is empowering to a person to hear what they don’t dare to accept, see, remember or recognise within themselves at a given moment and it can shift things profoundly internally, which then manifest in their daily lives.

I can’t think of any better way of relating than to shine a light for another to see their own divine essence, potential and light. Empowerment with unconditional love, acceptance, joy and deep seeing is priceless. It is like helping someone see in the dark and experience their own light. It is ‘soul seeing’. My readings are based on this way of connecting people back to themselves helping everyone love themselves and live their life to its full potential.

Blessings!

Sacred peace

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The feeling of inner peace for me has always been the most unreachable and desirable state I could ever imagine. I simply always knew that it was my deepest desire to be able to taste, feel and introject the signature of what is the ultimate Inner Peace. It always felt like my life has been one big turmoil and unrest within the soul and nothing ever seemed to shift that innate sadness I always felt. Whenever I had come up against challenges, losses, depression, mania, addiction or total abandonment and bitter loneliness I fought my demons from outside in making myself unworthy, making myself disappear in the sea of desperation and hopelessness. I always craved and wished for one day to feel that peace within. I always said that there could not be anything better than a peace of mind, a peace of heart and a peace of my total being. I still stand by that.

Well, it has been a journey and through my life experience I have tasted that what I had desired for so long. I am now able to access that primary positive signature feeling more and more often. How it makes me feel? Humble, soft, gentle, pure, light, whole, all giving and receiving, loved. It is a feeling of a feather gently spiralling to the ground and landing on the earth so softly and gracefully it makes the world stop and witness it with the heart full of love and inspiration.

Lately I have been reading Buddhism teachings and listening to some great teachers, who radiate that feeling I now know well. It exists in other people and we all have potential to reach that place where we are one, we are whole and we are loved unconditionally. When I attempt to describe it to my clients I tend to go into that space where it is alive and it radiates towards whoever is listening and the effect of it is transformational. I do wish to be able to continue transmitting that feeling whenever it is needed for my loved ones and in my work. Just writing about it all I can see in front of me is gentle waves of the ocean licking the shore and air is so still and tranquil it makes me want to cry. It is somewhat elegant, pristine, untouched and utterly beautiful. I can also smell sandalwood and lavender, feel the freshness of air, smell the saltiness of water and earthiness of the ground with my solar plexus feeling warm. I notice how all four elements are present within that feeling, which fills me with joy.

This image is becoming one of my favourite associations with the feeling I describe. Many years ago I bought this statue, but I never knew why I did and what the use of it was for me, I just picked it up and brought it home from abroad. I bought it in a junk shop in Spain, I think. It is very simple yet I have always felt it and over the years it somehow made it to the centre of my altar and stayed there without me moving it anywhere else or even touching it. It ended up to be the centre piece on my Pagan eclectic witchy altar. Only now it is slowly beginning to make sense, as I recognise the signature of the feeling I have been seeking and my attraction to the ‘peace and stillness’ of the figure resonates with my heart. I love it. I will continue my exploration of this beautifully flowing feeling I have come to discover within and seek to amplify it for the purpose of my soul’s growth and bigger development within the structure I live. I remain ever curious and open to all messages that come my way.

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The 4th card in a reading

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I have come to some big insights over this weekend and I feel exhausted emotionally and physically. As part of my process I worked with Tarot cards and found it particularly illuminating this time around. It has something to do with the actual deck, I suspect, as one must resonate with the maker and energy that cards transmit. This deck feels very powerful, authentic, honest and crystal clear.

Having pulled three cards over the course of this recent psycho-spiritual process work and I wanted to complete the process with the fourth card. When doing 3-cards readings I am always drawn to pull one more card to complete, three cards always feels incomplete or resolute somehow. It does feel right to me and makes sense.

Number four, when we work with dreams, e.g. or any other spiritual realm like Elemental realm where there are four elements, is the number of completion and, perhaps, my being likes to complete each cycle in this way and the fourth card is a way of doing that for me. It works like this, e.g.

1 card – where we are coming from

2 card – what we are feeling

3 card – why and how this is manifesting

You see, to me, this is not yet complete, therefore

4 card – what is to do to move forward, what does a forward movement/energy looks and feels like

It made me laugh out loud when I pulled the fourth card just now. It is brutally honest, open and basically telling me there is no other way to progress, but to be ME, to stick with ME and get to those insights that are all within me, pull all the resources together to unveil what is unseen. Yes, Mam, I almost feel like saying, but easier said than done, right, nevertheless it is so refreshing to have it confirmed that there is only way forward no matter how hard or impossible it might seem.

Reveal the Mystery card – a confirmation of the universe ready with offering an answer to my question. All I have to do is ask. I love it.

‘But as soon as he came near he heard the noise of trumpets and the beating of drums, and there where the fine stone house had been was now a great palace with a golden roof.’ (Old Peter’s Russian Tales) 

TRANSFORMATION

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Wedding to the Land

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As I came up to the sixth gate of the underworld I had a sudden and unexpected, yet very clear, pull to take my wedding ring off. This was not planned. I took it off without hesitation and gave it away to the guard. I remember struggling to take it off, as my hand wouldn’t give. I had to be hard with it, as the purpose was way stronger than anything I wore on my body.

As I continued to the last gate preparing to un-robe I felt liberated, pure, uncluttered and in total surrender to death, to nothingness, to complete darkness where nothing and no one existed. I felt no fear, I knew I was meant to be there, I knew my purpose. It was to sacrifice my glowing heart to the Dark Goddess, so she could be touched to the depth of her soul. As she ripped my heart out of my chest and I crashed to the floor, she wept over the heart. I laid on the stone cold floor with my wolf Lizeal against my bare body. Silence, darkness, nothingness.

I spent all my dreaming night walking in my white robe through lands, using various means of transport to get somewhere. My husband, as my companion or rather a witness, remained silent and patient throughout. I dug my hands into the cool sand and wailed bowing to the ground as if saying good bye to myself. I was moaning the loss of the old, which is a stage not worth by-passing, it is all part of the initiation into new. Acknowledging your sorrow and vulnerability is part of the process and one must go with its mournful flow.

The next day, as I came back to life and was walking up to the world, at the sixth gate I picked up the ring, but it did not go back on my finger. I followed my intuition closely and the air was filled with strong intention. There was no choice in this, I was not in control, things were going to unfold and I was to go with it trusting and knowing of the higher purpose of this. I continued my journey up the stairs and back to the world and at the last gate where on my descent I surrendered my connection with the Land, I was again reunited with it and I wept with joy. Our connection was reaffirmed and solidified in marriage of souls and spirit. The ring I gave up on the way down went on my wedding finger and it felt just right. Light and pure and purposeful. The happiness that spread through me was immense and with tears of joy I bowed to the Earth that was to be my purpose, my soul, my spiritual partner for life.

I emerged from the underworld yesterday married to the land, to my life purpose, to my soul.

“I belong to the Land
I belong to the Earth
to the Moon and the stars
to lakes and mountains and mossy hills.
Let the Sun rise over the new dawn of wisdom and power
Let my voice be heard and my feet gently touch the ground
All come together as one whole
As Above, so is Below”

Synchronicities awareness – journey back in time

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My journey through synchronicities today led me to a more clarified state of mind and emotions, which then subsequently led towards knowledge of what is needed to be in place and a clearer sense of direction.

‘I get it’, I heard myself say today several times, as I began my train journey into London. This morning I noticed a sense of excitement within, which is not usually present at the prospect of going into a big, noisy, busy place like a city. There was anticipation and a clear sense of ‘I am going to find out something today’. This was to be a useful exercise and an insightful experience, which, like any experience if done with awareness can help us more forward in our growth.

The weather was overcast with a threat of rain, but I was glad of that and grateful to the universe for providing that extra step where I would be comfortable in attending to today’s business in the city. If it was baking hot, it would have been easy for me to say ‘no’ to an experience however strong the pull might have been. I don’t thrive in heat, my spirit dims and my thinking is foggy. I needed light rain and grey clouds to keep my senses fresh and yes, the universe knew that well. I smiled, as I watched trees slide past the window of a moving train.

When I arrived the feeling of content and curiosity remained intact and as I was walking along old London’s street past old buildings I noticed how many plaques were on the walls and all of them pointed towards a certain artist or a doctor having lived there before – all from the 18th century. Again, my excitement grew and I felt a sense of being transported into the period. I saw a carriage pulling outside one of the front doors and a gentleman helped a lady step on to the pavement. Her dress was modest, but beautiful and everything was in place, as she gracefully walked up the stairs towards the door followed by a gentleman. I was very aware of different smells today – clean, sterile in one place and ‘old’, ‘not of this world’ in another. Fresh white wash paint was another. It was such a sensory experience, as if walls of each building were speaking to me. I realised that buildings just like land connects to my sensory abilities and I am able to read their signatures. I am sure there is a word for this, a name that escapes me at the moment. I smiled, as I am becoming familiar with my connection to the 18th century. In the last year or two there had been signs it was the time I was here before. I am enjoying exploration into that past-life aspect of myself and being shown more and more in terms of what that means and how the past can influence the future in a way beneficial to me.

The place I visited had a lovely ‘crisp, clean and sterile’ feel of a hospital, something I love to experience. The smell of surgical spirit and clean bed sheets – I can clearly see it around the place. For sometime I went into a state of being with that experience, transported into a state I knew well and a place I had visited before and called home.

There was more to come and when it came to the business of why I was actually there I was led into a room with no windows and bang, there it was again – my core trauma of being ‘imprisoned’. I instantly knew this was not meant to be and began to question – why? What was it about the person showing it to me and the actual room that tells me I must walk away. A feeling of sadness was present, but also felt right. When something feels right whether it is sad or joyous we go with the feeling of ‘right’, nothing else matters. We must let go off an attachment to an outcome we might have had before undertaking something. This was one of those moment where I had to let go off my original plan and be prepared to look into this from a perspective of what this is telling me right now. Next room was no better. It was cluttered, dirty and smelt unpleasant. It was in contrast with the room I saw before, which was beautifully decorated and pleasant, but without a window. The room I stood in had a window, but it was covered by a dirty cheap blind. Again, I felt a definite ‘no’ message. Something was not complete yet. I was not ready. There was still more completion and tidying up to do before I could put the plan in action. Very clear message.

As I left the building I felt very tired and had a headache. My spirits were slightly dimmed, but it felt like I did a lot of work having gone on this journey and insights started flowing out of me while I waited for the train back. Crystal clear messages with exact wording of what needs to be done and what I need to ignore. I felt grateful yet again for having listened to the inner voice to go on this trip. I got so much out of it.

I invite everyone to follow that inner voice and tune into yourself daily in hope to align with universal intentions. I find especially in times of uncertainty it is very useful to look around you, to ask for assistance. It comes in mysterious ways and when you immerse yourself into that exploration of possibilities you will be surprised what comes out of it. I have done this several times and the city now called me several times just like the forest would call me in the same way. One got to go when you are called, as there are gems of knowledge lies within the universal and you are very much part of it, so participate with joy and curiosity.

Much love

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Online Tarot Cards Readings

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I work with traditional Tarot decks and also Oracle and Angel cards depending on your requirements and my intuitive inclination at the time. Each reading comes with more than just a reading of cards. It comes with intuitive information and deeper interpretation of the energies around you at the time I do the reading. I incorporate psychology and spiritual aspects into my interpretations and recommendations, therefore providing a more holistic and rounded experience. It goes further than just a spread and interpretation, which means you get a lot more information than you would normally do from a Tarot reading. With each reading I tune into you and interpret everything that comes in at that point. My card readings are intuitive in nature and unique to each individual.
All my Tarot readings are online. I do a reading and present information to you in a written document for you to keep and refer to.  The beauty of written readings is that not only you can keep a copy for your records, but you can read the message again and again and really take your time with the information.

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