New Moon revisited

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I just read an old post of mine about upgrades I received a while back about love during Dark Moon period. POST HERE 

During that time the information I received was to cultivate the love within, make it grow regardless on whether I am in a relationship or not. My awareness of inner power and the vibration of unconditional love within became strong and clear. What I also felt, however, and yes, this is the tinge of darker shade I imagine needed to be added, was my lack of need for a partner. I feel that was thrown in there to see if I get confused, by-pass a few things and really get the message. Reading it back my perception of what the message really was changed. It was wonderful to have received the insight and a real felt sense of the love within me. I connected to myself on a different level during that time and it has stayed with me, but what was the other side of it? Did I really need to abandon all my relationships purely because I felt I didn’t need that for as long as I love myself? Do you see a slight distortion in the message that I perceived to be that way. It is a bit of riddle, which in this post I attempt to unravel.

With some time passed and a few view on that particular time and insight I can see the mixture of vibrations woven into what I was experiencing. It was yet another test, firstly, on whether I would be able to really connect to myself and sustain that vibration of self-love on a continuous basis. The second part was to challenge me to stop and think deeper into what was actually best for me and how that newly found inner love could serve me AND the other rather than ‘I don’t need the other, I am complete as I am’. Over some time what occurred in my life with regards to my life partner has actually been a deepening of our connection and love rather than abolition of all connection. What I feel now is not only love within, but deep wisdom of the Earthly love and what that means to be a partner, a wife, a life companion. It feels deeply grounded, safe and soul soothing. One might say my initial insight had taken me on a journey towards further discovering of how my inner love manifested out there in my relationships and through deepening connecting rather than letting go off it, my inner love grew and my wisdom became a guiding voice here on Earth. One might say the Spirit vibration got manifested in real terms in this dimension, which is the ultimate goal of spirituality and a struggle for so many.

The lesson of this is not to see things as they appear on the surface, but allow for it to develop, look deeper, give it time to really make sense in your body and in your current reality. There is often more to a message than meets the eye and we are often to quick to make a judgement and a decision, which sometimes is nothing more than an unconscious attempt to run away from something, a resistance to something.

Happy New Moon and cultivating new seeds of love and wisdom!

 

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Planting a Love seed at New moon – new paradigm

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New or Dark Moon is my favourite moon phase. During this time I always experience inner power, grace, quietness and softness the MOST. I often go through a period of sadness and reflection, which feels quite nice and somewhat necessary. It is a period I would describe as ‘licking my wounds’ while hibernating in the darkness of my soul with my inner light being present at the same time, very touching, awe-inspiring light. It is such an interesting energetic period for me that I find it is always productive in a way of new insights and processing of the old.

What is around me at present is the idea and my new understanding of love especially in relation to a male partner or a companion. There is a mixture of romance and also rejection of a partner for it is no longer needed I feel. It is a big shift in consciousness where I feel not only free and powerful in my own right, but I feel being with another, particularly who is not ready or on the same plane as you currently, will impair your development and growth and will slow down and dim your awesomeness, so to speak. It is sad times, as I process and release old conditions and ideas. It also feels liberating. I am not quite sure how this is all going to plan out, but to have received a completely new message about love, romance and partnership is for sure shaking things up deep within me and who knows where it will go. I am open to all that is meant to come through and prepared to receive the wisdom.

What is also coming through, as I literally feel my magic tingling in my fingertips is a need for a ritual and a spell and there is no better time, as now, New moon. With my redefined yet not crystal clear idea of love I am going to whip up some magic into whatever it will shape up to be. I feel it is needed in order to plant and ground that seed of love that I am creating. Something that will serve my highest purpose and also help others around me as a result whether we will receive clarity, resolution, a new surge of passion or a general relationship upgrade or nothing. Whatever it might be I am ready.

Redefined idea of love for me right now is coming through as – Love begins with yourself, it is a force that is very strong, it is a sensation you can taste in your mouth and feel running in your veins. You know this love, you had long felt it, got burnt by it, cried many tears over it as a result and you still in awe of the feeling of that love and connection. The kind of love you dedicate your life to. This is what you hold within no matter how it ended, wounded you or died all together in real life. It IS within you. You remember and know what it felt like as if it was yesterday. I am feeling it right now and can very easily recall it. Well, that feeling is in alignment with the source consciousness and love. The universe loves you and you love the universe. There is an exchange of love wisdom and immense power. It starts from you and when and if you choose to be with someone else and fall in love or decide to manifest that inner feeling of love outwardly on Earth, that is how you are going to express it, through expressing and sharing it with someone else. This is rare, I must say, in this earthly reality, at least I believe it at this point, but it is not impossible. Many chase this transaction and see it as only a dream and come up against obstacles again and again. On some level I can understand how this only looks like a dream when out of consciousness and direct experience. Many give up, but many don’t and continue to carry that belief that somewhere somehow the universe will send that one true love to them in order for them to express the love they hold within. It is a beautiful idea, but on the other hand, there is also no need for that other when you already hold the feeling within you and you know it and you are immersed in it and can be in it at any moment you want. Then there is no need for another, not really. You are powerful and in love with yourself and the universe and the idea of external love becomes extinct. THIS IS the new idea, an upgraded version of love…

My New Moon ritual will serve a purpose of, on one hand, evoking a response from the universe of what is coming up and what needs to be worked towards in a way of love/romance/relationship, and, on the other hand, to plant that seed of love actively with intention of, perhaps, reignite that feeling within even stronger so it gets magnified towards the Full Moon. It is sort of an experiment to see what grows out of the New Moon magic. I don’t even know what exactly I will be doing, as all my magic work is purely intuitive, but I am called and pulled very strongly to sit with all the insights and feelings that are being transmitted through me.

Why not do something awesome this New Moon yourself? Whatever you are going through why not sit with it and plant a seed of love or whatever it is you are experiencing right now or need answers to and see what grows.

Blessings!

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The New Moon – diving into darkness

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The last couple of months have been chaotic and traumatising. belief and faith smashing and soul shaking. I have been re-living pain and suffering, loss and betrayal and feeling that deep disappointment. The New Moon this month is not that ‘light’ way of connecting with the new, not that exciting feeling of anticipation of things to come, not propelling into action and begin creating type of vibe. It is dark, it is painful, it is stagnant, unclear and confusing. I am experiencing it as truly ‘Dark’ this month. It is called both Dark and New for a reason, as one of my strongest beliefs is that new, exciting and light comes from deep shit and darkness. When one is in a state of obliteration and deletion of all beliefs and supports previously thought good and helpful, one is in true darkness. It is lonely, it is painful and it is by far the most confusing and chaotic state one can be in. But only when you end up in a place where there is no light and everything crashed around you, only when everything disappears from your view and there is no direction you realise something needs to be born. It is a true call to action, to healing, to transformation. It is from that place of having nothing else to lose and having nothing you can rely upon, you begin to build bridges within your consciousness towards a way out, a way forward.

Ways of clearing the road, so to speak, and finding a direction again, a signpost, which leads you out of that dark and into a new place is to sit in that dark place for as long as needed first and foremost. Cry, scream, roll around in pain and witness your own being experiencing whatever painful emotions are living within you in that moment. It is a place where an escape is pointless, you don’t need an escape what you need is a clear opening, which does appear sooner or later. It is like a hand of spirit (whatever form you experience that) reaching out to you asking you to join into the light, it is like that. Things to do when in dark phase of your being and it happens to be during the New/Dark Moon for me this month are:

  • Decorate your sacred space with objects, scents representative of how you feel and also include things that symbolize how you wish to feel, e.g. your favourite flowers or crystals
  • Ask the God and Goddess to be your witnesses in this episode of your ‘crying out from within’
  • Just sit with it, cry as much as you want and wait
  • Listen, be still in awareness of your own body, the state of your mind and your emotional body
  • Be raw with it, be whatever you need to be

This New Moon in a way of a ritual, I am already re-creating a space within my altar, which is a conscious ‘build’ of what is going on, so I can witness it and have it mirrored to me. I also connect with that most vulnerable, but also THE most beautiful part of myself where there is so much love and so much pain at the same time that when I invoke that being I tremble and cry uncontrollably. I need to be with ‘her’, I need to witness that wholeness that this being is in all its glory and in all its ugliness all at the same time. So tonight I will go to that place in my bedroom called a sacred space and I intend to just be with what is and listen out for any guidance that comes my way, but more than anything I need to witness myself in this new state of rebirthing and have it witnessed by deities that will be joining me. Whatever that is, it doesn’t matter. The right thing always comes at the time when one is open whether in joy or pain, it comes and you bow to that and you say, thank you for being with me. I am being with me, I am being with the whole me and I am doing this to grow, to learn, to progress and light up once again.

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New Moon Ritual

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New Dark Moon energy is delicious to me, it is gentle and soothing, very introspective, reflective of the past and looking towards the future. There is hope and enthusiasm about it, quiet contemplation of what gifts are awaiting us all and enthusiasm for new ideas, which usually are springing to my consciousness around that time.

In contrast to the Full Moon, while others get very excited, I always find it too intense and often hard to bear. I often find that things happen around that time whenever I try and put myself out there, whenever I force myself, things, which are out of alignment happen. During Full Moon my mind is clouded and emotions are dense. Although I absolutely love the Moon’s energy and it is the most pleasant sensory experience for me when I am out in the Moon light with my palms stretched out in front of me with the light penetrating my cells, performing spells or rituals during Full Moon for me is difficult. I enjoy having a quiet ritual simply by spending time with the Full Moon, but that’s as far as it goes. There is often a fair amount of resistance in my physical, emotional and mental areas. It is an interesting observation I have become aware of this year Excited to see what transpires next, as I continue on my beautiful journey of magic living. You see, the journey is very individual just as our energies are individual and how we vibrate and when, there are similarities, but there are also many peculiarities and oddities, which only you can experience. The way to go is to find these things out for yourself and to do that you need to listen to your intuition, pay attention to your body and emotional and energetic vibrations during each Moon cycle. When it doesn’t feel right for me and I can sense resistance I never force it regardless of what plans I might have had for that day or what I had prepared. I do not do it till the time is right for me. This applies to ALL spells and ALL Moon cycles.

New Moon has a lovely light feeling to me with colours of purple coming to mind. It holds a mystery of what is to come, an anticipation, a new beginning, another chance, a new path to take or walk the same path with renewed energy and passion. I feel all elements very present at this time and I invoke all of them when doing a ritual on the New Moon.

I commune with all the elementals asking them to guide me in whatever goals I have in mind and whatever wishes I would like to bring to fruition for my loved ones and my home. I focus strongly on Earth and ground myself with the ‘tree meditation’ inhaling the energy from the centre of the Earth into my whole being and stretching it out to every cell of my physical body and psychic awareness and releasing all tension while breathing out back to the centre of the Earth.

NEW MOON RITUAL

Before a New Moon find an object either in your house or outside in your garden, on a walk or anywhere you go. It can be a stone, a twig, a leaf, a piece of bark, a photograph, a piece of clothing, a statue or a piece of jewellery, a crystal anything that resonates with your intention. Trust that when you begin to focus on finding such an object it should come into your physical awareness. You will recognise it when you come across it. You can perform your ritual in your chosen sacred space inside or outside or you can just sit wherever you are called to do it at the time.

Sit down comfortably, close your eyes and follow your, when you feel you access the ‘in-between thoughts’ state paying a gentle attention to your breath think of all the wonderful things that you already have and wish to come MORE into your life. Declare that everything you think and feel is fully from your heart and from the space of unconditional love towards yourself and others. Think of qualities that you value in your experience, in people around you, which you would like to attract MORE into your life. What is it that you would like to experience more of? Holding your chosen object in the palm of your hand, focus your attention and intention on ‘injecting’ all the qualities you chose into the object, send your energy into it,  e.g. generosity, kindness, good health, affection, tenderness, etc. the list can be as small or as big as you wish. You might want to be very specific with one or two things, or you can adopt a general ‘more of good vibration’ approach with this spell. It is entirely up to you and you will know the path you will take once you set on working with it. Once you put all the goodness into your object find a spot outside where you will bury the object. Find a place where it is clean, joyous where you feel the energy is conducive to positive growth and expansion. Let it ‘grow’ in the Earth, ask the Universe to make all of those things bigger and better with gratitude and love. And leave it in there. Your intentions are set and it is done!

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Here’s a stone that I found on my Winter Solstice Walk. I love it.

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